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Saturday, February 25, 2006
i just spent 2 hours poring over a video tape, technician-style. my interaction with it has proven without a doubt that i definitely do not have technical aptitude whatsoever. you're probably wondering why i was so worked up over a stupid video tape. well, apparently the tape in question had Desperate Housewives 202 (bittorrent speak for season 2, episode 2) on it (according to my brother anyway). but for some reason, the tape was broken. you know, that flimsy brownish long strip. torn. split. so the data couldn't even be read at all.
so there i was, unscrewing and dismantling the tape, bringing it to pieces and trying to tape back the 2 broken ends of the tape. and then after i did that, i had trouble CLOSING the damn thing because of some protruding parts. when i finally got that out of the way, i realised that i hadn't put the 2 spools in the right position. and after i finished troubleshooting for that, stupid me decided not to put in the hard plastic flap on the opposite end of the side where you write a description of the show. so i put the tape in without that protective flap and tried rewinding it. i almost created a disaster inside the VCR machine.
when i finally got everything in order, and managed to get the tape working, i discovered that the tape was full of cartoons and anime. WTF!!! my brother is such an idiot. what an incredibly stupid waste of time. i fixed an old, defunct tape and still haven't gotten to watch that episode cos our tapes aren't labelled, and even if they are they're terribly outdated.
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this week, in tekongland!
IPPT fucked up, embarrassing
performances spectacles at the bar and the mat. 50 situps in a moment of madness. improved by about 8 seconds for 2.4 quite happy with the last 2, considering i was on 'excuse' status for about a week and thus had absolutely no training for the week before the test. i also drank 3 milkshakes (oops) within that time period of training break. so.. it's not that bad i guess.
rather uneventful week, really. oh, peer appraisal. teehee, finally a chance to get back at some people! like shoobeedoobeedoop! and other annoying characters. am definitely looking forward to doing that for the commander appraisal too. it thrills me that i can just give a rude face/ignore some of them on the street in about 2 weeks time!
hmmm. also went for the Weapons System Officer interview for the Air Force. amazingly, i passed the interview. i say "amazingly", because i wasn't even that keen on it. seems like i do better in interviews where i don't really give a damn about the result. i go in much more relaxed and calm. the most bitchy interviewer even remarked that i looked very "cool and confident". perhaps that's a strategy to follow in the future.. or maybe i'm just very adept in the art of talking cock now.
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we've been waiting for it for so long, and now that it's here we're not that keen anymore. i'm kind of predicting my grades in the most realistic way possible.. and i hope i won't be too far off the mark. i know my S paper is an absolute lost cause, so screw it because it's only important for scholarships. shan't announce my predictions here cos.. you never know how these things work. might just jinx it all.......
oh hell. what am i even talking about? it's already all printed and confirmed, waiting in some chamber in buona vista. there's no way those grades are going to magically transform.
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anyway,
Army Daze is back! i must be quite the psychic to mention it a few posts before. and no, i did not read about its re-staging anywhere. i REALLY want to watch this, especially since it will be on during block leave. it would be such an appropriate moment to go. now, i just need to find some people to accompany me..
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11:22 pm
Sunday, February 19, 2006
on a whim, i bought this :
damn ghei sia.
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i can't stand it anymore. some would call me foolish, some would call me desperate even. but i don't care. what i want for my birthday is something that starts with a B. there's nothing more to it.
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4:28 pm
Saturday, February 18, 2006
sometimes i wish it would all be better. but i understand what "too little, too late" means. so tough luck, you missed your chance dude. better luck next time. things just keep going on and on downhill. but it must work out someday. it has to, right? one day the fortunes must change.
on a sidenote that only i understand : astrology must be crap if two people with totally different personalities are born on the same day. one who's the apple of my eye, and the other who quite simply, isn't. how can that be possible? this utterly disproves astrology and all that horoscope stuff. something that the first person just told me has utterly changed my perspective. ugh similar life goals, after all. some intersection there. astrology must have some truth to it.
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today, we rediscovered this.
i guess after years of hit-and-misses (twister fries, fan-tastic shit burgers and chicken foldovers), they realised that the public just wasn't "lovin' it" enough. terrible mistake to remove milkshakes from the menu, and this revival comes with mixed feelings. for most of us, the mcdonald's milkshake is an iconic reminder of childhood (yes, it was gone for that long.)
however, it is sad (and somewhat expected) that it just ain't that good anymore. unfortunately, mine tasted like melted ice cream. in the past, they used to be frozen so stiff that sucking it up immediately after it was ordered was almost impossible. one had to wait awhile for the thing to defrost. i'm hoping that it was the faulty machine at pasir ris with temperature a few degrees higher, and not because of a recipe change. you know, living the "healthy lifestyle" and all. they probably wanted to round down the calories so that the 3 digit figure would end with a "99"
meanwhile, this woman's suggestive lyrics could be heard in between mouthfuls of milkshakes-
oh, try this and this out won't you. it's interesting to see how much our own views match up to the views of others. and if they don't, is it a matter of acute lack of self-awareness, or keeping one's true self hidden?
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11:14 pm
Sunday, February 12, 2006
most of the major events of BMT are well and truly over. after field camp and live range, there was the annoying SIT test, where people you never knew had it in them (and know will never have it in them) suddenly arise from nowhere and start speaking out like they were natural-born leaders. and the rather thrilling hand grenade experience - especially when you only learn how to throw it on the day itself. (that's not a common experience for all, only for me. but well, i survived and here i am.) unfortunately, or fortunately for some, one only gets to throw it once in one's whole army life. that is, if one doesn't go to command school.
all that's left now is the 24km route march (survivable), IPPT and SOC (ughfeste). sometimes i ask myself if it's worth all that trouble to make it to command school, and then suffer again for another 5/9 months. i really wonder.
overheard during a talk-cock session"sergeant, sergeant. do you think it's worth all that effort just for 2 years?"
"there's still reservist what. imagine how the uncles feel when they get fucked by little boys that are 20 years old and just got their rank?"
i giggle, but that isn't the point.
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god, even in the military world, there's no such thing as true duh-dom. you've still got to plan for your future, think about how you're gonna survive later on. climb just a bit higher on that bureaucratic heirarchy. floating by's quite unlikely unless one's a urine test-tube swirler at CMPB or something.
back in the concurrent, parallel civilian world which i have been utterly neglecting (read: not planning for and bothering with university/scholarship applications; not meeting up with people and friends) things are looking pretty grim. one has to realise, that although the military world seems so immediate and looks set to be a perennial annoyance, it is ultimately not something that will (unless our neighbours decide to just trample over us) preside over our lives.
what i am trying to get at, is the impending release of results. it's horrible to come from the top JC because everyone sets high standards for you. from homeground, and outside too. at least if i were from some shitty JC, it wouldn't matter. there would be no real feelings of disappointment, since there were low or no expectations to begin with. i'm expected to do really well in the platoon, but i don't think so. there's a really bad feeling surrounding this whole thing.
i shall just have to hope for the best.
and now, a picture to end off.
turn to stonelose my faithi'll be gonebefore it happens.
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1:22 am
Saturday, February 11, 2006
(from Aparna's blog) Go to your music player of choice and put it all on shuffle. For every next question, press next. Use the song title as the answer to the question.
01. What do you think of me, iTunes?
magic stick,
l'il kim and 50 cent02. Will I have a happy life?
unwritten,
natasha bedingfield03. What do my friends really think of me?
can't buy me love,
michael buble04. Do people secretly lust after me?
hung up,
madonna
05. How can I make myself happy?
lose control,
missy elliot, ciara & fat man scoop06. What should I do with my life?
dancing in the moonlight,
toploader07. Why must life be so full of pain?
life in mono,
mono08. Will I ever have children?
it's like that,
mariah carey09. Will I die happy?
sing for the moment,
eminem10. Can you give me some advice?
toxic,
britney spearssome of the answers seem really uncanny in the way they could directly answer some of the questions, not something random that has no connection. oh well. sometimes the meanings we get out of our lives are forced meanings - derived, interpreted and construed for our own purposes.
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11:34 pm
Thursday, February 02, 2006
and in this life, we only need one.......
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people are like tissues, all the same and only used by others.
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5:36 pm
Wednesday, February 01, 2006
got a new template. i think it's less cluttered than the previous one. i liked the previous one with its colourful boxes, and everything squished together in small little squares. but the small font wasn't that popular, so here we are. the picture really reminds me of
Heart of Darkness. it's got that dark yet beautiful, mysterious air about it.
updated the links a bit. got rid of some defunct blogs, as based on others' linklists, and changed some of the links too. candy, i added you! oh and i added the prompics too. that cute little flashbox thingum. under profile.
trip to malaysia was quite laidback, as it has been the past couple of times we went back. this was especially so since i've been feeling quite feverish ever since i left camp and it's still recurring even now. it's an on-off thing. i hope i get well before SIT test!
and my parents' friends are such nice people to give red packets to people they've never even seen before! really love the plastic $2 notes.
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when i was younger - about 4, 5 years ago. i asked someone, i forgot who, but it doesn't really matter, whether we would still use MSN when we were adults. i think the reply was that we would since the world seems to be getting more and more connected over the WWW.
i think differently.
i hardly see anyone online these days. i'm not sure if it's because of necessity or because of choice. whether there is even time, or when there is time it is spent on more worthwhile endeavours than rotting away in front of a screen. and it is true, adults do online chatting less too. is it any wonder? only students have such carefree lives.
i never really saw the importance of blogs when i was still in school, despite engaging thoroughly in it. people see each other everyday, anyway. not so anymore. a blog is an important tool to update people on what's happening in your life, especially when people lead separate ones. holding on to the past while moving on to the future. now wasn't that some rafflesian ethos, what with the double-headed gryphon and all. (see, i paid attention during sec 1 history class.)
i figured that the best way of living one's life is to immerse oneself thoroughly in the here and now. the present. it doesn't last long, and it's the only thing that one can enjoy fully by interacting with it in all ways. tell a loved one you love them, and get an instant show of affection. savour it. living in the past, or the future for that matter, works for some people. people who can't let go of their regrets or halcyon days, or people who always dream of a better future. i guess at different points, i was either one or even both. but it's quite.. pointless. it's a one-way experience that reaches a dead-end. faded cards, or an uncertain ORD date. you dwell on it, and ignore the things of the present, choosing instead to wallow in the mellow histories of yesterday, or look to the great days ahead without a thought of how one will reach there. i'm not saying that the past or the future isn't important. they are important relative markers, but they are just that. markers to illuminate the current path. how we should live our life as compared to before, and how we should live our life for better times.
bah, how pretentious of me to talk about being an adult when my age hasn't even dropped the "teen" part yet.
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this is my riflethis is my gunthis is for fightingthis is for fun...........the sun is shining like you knew it would.how could it hurt you when it looks so good?
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2:58 am
