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Sunday, March 05, 2006
Games Day and Recruits' Evening weren't too bad, although it's kinda funny how i felt tired despite not doing anything at all. must be all that standing around in the sun. MDC's performance was.. frenetically energetic to say the least. but somehow it reminded me of the thai mambo show that i watched when i went to thailand. not really sure if that's a good thing, even when you disregard the lower (but still present) level of tackiness.
graduation parade rehearsals have degenerated from shittiness to laugh sessions because of the guy who repeats himself ad nauseum. "let me tell you this! you must be like a matchbox, not an MRT train! if you don't do it well, let me tell you this! i will make you stay back until dinner, let me tell you this! you better not
peng san, if not your girlfriend and family will be embarrased, and then they can go to the medical centre to put on your jockey cap, let me tell you this. so let me tell you this, you better play with your fingers and play with your toes, because if you are not good let me tell you this, i will put you behind, so that no one can see you, let me tell you this.. you hear for yourself! where is the
PAH one sound. i don't want to hear
PAH PAH PAH PAH PAH"
you get the picture.
24km march was apparently 27.2km. not like we could have ascertained it, anyway. but it definitely FELT more than we should have done. it was quite the experience. i mean normally route marches are gruelling affairs but there was something more magical and special about this. maybe because it was done school level, so to see all the companies marching back into the parade square past midnight was rather emotional, seeing everyone complete the last barrier before POP. i almost cried! hurhur. "we start with 40, we end with 40." indeed.
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with regard to my results, some scholarships are definitely out of the way, although i would still be eligible for some. my results fall that way, anyway. i'm just not sure if that's the kind of thing i want to be doing for life. it's so hard to plan for your life, when it's a long journey that you walk alone. you've got to make all the preparations, but really no one ever knows what's really going to happen. my horoscope says that typically my ambitions are more personal than anything. which is kind of true. and i end up trivialising my career ambitions. not very smart there, but i'll work out something.
after all that procrastination, i guess i will check out brightsparks. no harm in doing so, anyhow.
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life is pretty much pointless these days. i used to not care so much, because everyone was stuck anyway. the results weren't out and everyone just went with the system of conscription or getting a tempjob. there wasn't anything else i could do, so keeping myself occupied was fine with me.
now that i have results that granted aren't excellent, but can still bring me most places, i don't want to be stuck here anymore. damnit, the girls will be studying soon and i'll still have more than a year of liabilities by then. highly depressing.
on a separate note, i think i've lost my bitchy side. someone was annoying the fuck out of me just now, and in the past i would have ripped him to shreds. this time i felt like i was just defending myself more than anything. mellowing, sometimes, is not a very good thing to happen. i feel like i'm growing old too quickly, there should still be some years of zest left in me. and even then, that's not an excuse. even really old people can be really
woohoo! sometimes. i need something.
famous faces, far off places, trinkets i can buyno handsome stranger, heady danger, drug that i can tryno ferris wheel, no heart to steal, no laughter in the darkno one night stand, no far off land, no fire that i can sparkthe face of you, my substitute for loveshould i wait for you, my substitute for lovethis is my religion.
mike just took up your time at
2:12 am
th time!