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Sunday, February 12, 2006
most of the major events of BMT are well and truly over. after field camp and live range, there was the annoying SIT test, where people you never knew had it in them (and know will never have it in them) suddenly arise from nowhere and start speaking out like they were natural-born leaders. and the rather thrilling hand grenade experience - especially when you only learn how to throw it on the day itself. (that's not a common experience for all, only for me. but well, i survived and here i am.) unfortunately, or fortunately for some, one only gets to throw it once in one's whole army life. that is, if one doesn't go to command school.
all that's left now is the 24km route march (survivable), IPPT and SOC (ughfeste). sometimes i ask myself if it's worth all that trouble to make it to command school, and then suffer again for another 5/9 months. i really wonder.
overheard during a talk-cock session"sergeant, sergeant. do you think it's worth all that effort just for 2 years?"
"there's still reservist what. imagine how the uncles feel when they get fucked by little boys that are 20 years old and just got their rank?"
i giggle, but that isn't the point.
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god, even in the military world, there's no such thing as true duh-dom. you've still got to plan for your future, think about how you're gonna survive later on. climb just a bit higher on that bureaucratic heirarchy. floating by's quite unlikely unless one's a urine test-tube swirler at CMPB or something.
back in the concurrent, parallel civilian world which i have been utterly neglecting (read: not planning for and bothering with university/scholarship applications; not meeting up with people and friends) things are looking pretty grim. one has to realise, that although the military world seems so immediate and looks set to be a perennial annoyance, it is ultimately not something that will (unless our neighbours decide to just trample over us) preside over our lives.
what i am trying to get at, is the impending release of results. it's horrible to come from the top JC because everyone sets high standards for you. from homeground, and outside too. at least if i were from some shitty JC, it wouldn't matter. there would be no real feelings of disappointment, since there were low or no expectations to begin with. i'm expected to do really well in the platoon, but i don't think so. there's a really bad feeling surrounding this whole thing.
i shall just have to hope for the best.
and now, a picture to end off.
turn to stonelose my faithi'll be gonebefore it happens.
mike just took up your time at
1:22 am
th time!
