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Sunday, January 01, 2006
first post for the new year!
the transition from 2005 to 2006 was a nasty one, because i wasn't even out. in fact, i wasn't even up! i just slept thru the whole damn thing. got a bad case of the flu and sore throat. i've been sick twice in the 3 weeks i've been in the army. i actually started out fine, but eventually i fell too since everyone around me was getting sick. and you know unless you fully recover you'll get a relapse. which i suppose is what's happening now. hmm, need to bring multivits and probably a facemask for sleeping. with all those germs circulating about everytime people cough at night, it's probably a good investment.
i really don't like reporting sick. people give you a funny look, and the commanders instantly assume that you're trying to slack off too. and what do you do when everyone else is training? oh, you merely sweep leaves and trash and do area cleaning. i didn't agree to National Slavery just to be a roadsweeper! it's really mundane, and i would much prefer taking part in the training. oh well, just my luck.
everytime the commercial planes fly by i feel a sense of awe. and sadness. like there go all the free people, able to do whatever they like, and here i am slogging away, being treated with suspicion from all angles. the fighter jets on the other hand, are somewhat inspirational as something to strive to.
i'm just glad i've found some new friends that i can trust. they make life in the hellhole that much better.
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what resolutions do i have this year? i really don't know. never really bothered with them much anyway. so what would i like.. OCS would be nice. and so would getting the love of my life. i can't really think of anything else. but then again, these things aren't totally within my reach, so they're not so much resolutions as they are goals and dreams.
ok actually there's really only one resolution that's really important to me. i need direction, i need an aim or a goal or something to work towards. and i mean long-term, like what i intend to study in the U and do as a career. i know it's abit of a tall order, but nobody got anywhere without knowing what they wanted. right now, i'm just living the days by without giving a damn about my future. that has to change. by the end of this year, i must know exactly what i want to end up as and start working towards it.
mike just took up your time at
11:01 pm
th time!