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Thursday, October 27, 2005
it's not like i haven't been dropping clues.
sometimes, i must feel like the dead poets that turn in their graves, appaled at the way people misinterpret their poetry. the painstakingly placed imagery, the carefully arranged wording. unnoticed. likewise, here.
i think i open myself up more than i would like to, and yet the deliberate exposing of vulnerability passes over heads as unintelligible private thought. truth of the matter is, just like poets, only we know what the true intention of our work is. (i do put in effort in my blogging.) everything that passes second, or third or even fourth and fifth hand {oh dear this reminds me of the dilution of ideas in
The Machine Stops by EM Forster [lit's the only subject where you still remember stuff even after graduation and exams (omg this is the first time i'm doing a 3-in-1 side comment, although the innermost one has no real point or use except to see if it can work) are over, when the certificates come back and are stored away under the dust] where great ideas were encouraged to be watered-down cos they suffered from the taint of personality, and only when they were disconnected from human factors were they worthy to be brought up, far removed from the context of their origins} through other people will inevitably lose its intent. but i guess the truth of the matter is. people DO construct their own knowledge differently, and everyone will have different interpretations of what you say and it's just impossible to stop that.
and maybe that's not so bad. it might seem horrific, at first, from a purist artist's standpoint. and i must disagree with
candy when she criticizes The Woman Warrior. i think MHK probably feels terrible (or maybe not) that everyone thinks she's a
siaodingdong (
brian's catchphrase). the power of the word is so important. it is The Sword to battle injustice, among other things. and if the spoken word is harder to grasp, then the written word behind the screen is much lighter and easier to wield, yet packs a greater punch in its longevity. it really is very dynamic and alive.
i have derailed from my main train of thought, which was that i think people misinterpret what i write, or that they totally miss something staring at them right in their faces. and i'm not sure which is worse. probably the former. at least with the latter there aren't WRONG notions. do realise, that everything, as frivolous as they may seem have a purpose. even this.
but no, this isn't
talk-story or one of those pre-fabricated woven tapestry of truth, half-truths, semi-truths etc. everything here is true. you just need to know what the red herrings are and ignore them. don't let them obfuscate. to prevent pitfall number 1 - misinterpretation. avoiding pitfall number 2 requires intellect which i'm not sure everyone who reads this has. and contextual knowledge of my life definitely won't hurt either. which is another reason why i think public blogging is quite dangerous. people often less important than they think they really are imagine everything to be about them. i guess sometimes i hide things too well. and to be Cryptic, one needs to be General. which invites a lot of problems.
mike just took up your time at
3:47 am
th time!