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Saturday, October 29, 2005
at this point in time, it's only 10 days to Maths. so that means no more MSN, no more blogsurfing, no more watching Madonna's
Hung Up video (which is at once inspiring and disturbing, seeing a 47-year-old woman hump a boombox with carefree wild abandon), no more wasting time online taking pointless quizzes or looking at hodbods i'll never get, no more forum lurking which i love to do.
i'll probably come back sporadically. but not more. as much as i was all fatalistic and
heck if i flunk a few days ago, i realise that i DO care. after all, doesn't the old adage go "God only helps those that help themselves". i've got to at least attempt to try. not to say that i'm hoping for divine intervention to carry me through this period. i don't even deserve it. though i would appreciate if i get some undeserved Grace (which itself is a tautological error). but the truth of the matter is. i need to put in all the EFFORT i can put in (although i definitely wouldn't want the first 4 letters of that word) at this last lap. i think i was much more driven during the O Levels though. i remember finishing all the Physics and Chemistry MCQs, and working steadily to score high on Math papers (FYI i'm only averaging a B at this moment.) has 2 years really made life look so very pointless?
i already have enough regrets in this life. i don't need another.
it's time for Mister Miracle to conjure something out of his hat for the last time.
wake me up when november ends.
mike just took up your time at
3:12 am
th time!