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Monday, October 03, 2005
after i leave school, i think i'll probably try my hand at everything. without all the pressure of studying (of which i don't really succumb to, merely niggling at the back of my mind) it would be much easier and more convenient. although i could only really do so on weekends after booking out. (hurrah! i'm going to be a MAN. WOARGGH.)
so anyway, why bother trying to be a jack of all trades? today my mother asked me if i wanted the TIME magazines that i'd been collecting in a stack (of what? bonfire hazard clump?) anymore, cos apparently the mission trip people were leaving soon, and they wanted donations etc. i'm more than happy to give away things that i'm not using (and never will) and are in good condition, even if not for the sole purpose of being charitable, since it frees up space in the junkyard called my room that i probably sleep in only half the time.
but of course i don't want it to be a total waste, so i started ripping open some of the pristinely wrapped copies to scour for interesting articles. suffice to say, some of them were really boring (read: anything to do with politics. i'm honestly pretty apathetic about it and i'll probably just automatically vote for PAP in the future.) and some were really intriguing, like how our brains are only really fully developed at about age 25 thereabouts.
what really struck me though was some issue that featured 20 asians under 40 who've done something spectacular with their lives, even before hitting middle age. truly amazing, that. makes me wonder what i want to do. the more i think about it, the more i think maybe i'm not suited to studying. i got by earlier on with some sort of innate intelligence, but at higher levels of learning, discipline is the key and it's something i'm sorely lacking.
so hopefully by testing out every damn thing there is to do out there (from ice-skating to cooking) i'll eventually come across something that i'm good at, and take the world by storm. there's only one real ambition i have, and that i think everyone should have (but that's just a value judgement of mine), which is to do something to impact the world before they die.
and you sure as hell ain't gonna do that if you're not good at anything. or you could always be highly scandalous, though that's cheating. all you need to do is post naked pictures of yourself. but that's SO sarongpartygirl, ecks. we need people who can do something truly amazing.
and i hope i can be one of those people, someday.
mike just took up your time at
2:25 am
th time!