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Wednesday, September 28, 2005
i went for the air force pilot test today at CMPB. and after today, i know that i'm destined for the navy, for the army, for anything that's ground by gravity and doesn't go up into the sky. i mean the test went pretty fine at first, i could read directions and that kind of stuff, interpreting all the meter readings on the computer generated dashboard with ease. and then came the weird (but obvious stuff) like actually FLYING a freaking plane. using a joystick (and i always thought it was by a steering wheel, or buttons like a controller for a console game), we were meant to fly through this string of squares, and before each round (there were 3) the computer would say "you should aim to better your score on a scale of 1-10". guess what? i remained at 1 for all 3 trials. this is why i never made it into a sport and why i never do well at games like CS, pool, etc. i'm landlocked, baby!
oh and that wasn't all, there was this test where we had to control target crosshairs that were designed to deviate off centralisation WHILE listening with a keen ear for discrepancies in a countdown a la Arithmetic Progression WHILE keeping a lookout for a coloured shape marked with a specific number on the other side of the screen. actually, i should have gone home the moment the tester said " blah blah blah
psychomotor blah blah blah " because that is definitely not one of my natural-born talents.
and why on earth would i need to know what a stupid cube looks like when folded from a cutout. these questions always annoy me. they tested that for the stupid GEP selection tests too! and i couldn't get them. spatial patterns just aren't my thing. and the where's wally-styled tesselation basic shape search in a mess of lines was very annoying too. what with the countdown. and the stupid grid where we were supposed to match colours and shapes that kept changing at a regular basis. these tests aren't fun at all. they're tedious. oh there was ONE fun test where we had to get as high a score as possible through this line-growing game. ok never mind it doesn't make sense but i had fun playing that.
and then there was this WEIRD section where they gave a manual with instructions in it to follow. the unfortunate thing is, i had no idea what the stuff on the screen was getting at. full of technical terms that reminded me of logic gates (eek.) in Sec4 and aeronautical jargon. like ok they told me to type in the given error code but there's none? just weird graphs that on retrospect had names that reminded me of cations. Alsr2+ or some nonsensical rubbish like that. ok i don't think anyone even understands what i'm talking about cos i don't even understand it myself. that whole segment was plain greek gibberish to me, and weird is an understatement.
oh well. i did so want to be a pilot, it seemed real fun. but all that techie stuff's not for me. velocity, visualisation, eye-hand coordination, etc. and various other knick-knacks. that's the kind of stuff that we never see, which gives us the impression that it's simple pie. but really, it ain't that easy as a PS2 game. and there went the whole of today.
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i am very fearful of returning to school tomorrow. i did put in some effort this time (obviously not enough - but hey i did try!) but the fact remains that i did not perform for prelims. and how are the teachers going to view that? obviously negatively, cos i've never done exceptionally well throughout my stay here. to them, it'll just look like i'm slacking as usual and this will probably cement a few of them's hate for me. oh well.
not a very good thing to happen, actually. and yes i know it's over and that i should just accept whatever comes. there really is no excuse for failure, but who said facing the music was ever easy?
mike just took up your time at
8:12 pm
th time!