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Monday, August 01, 2005
yesterday, the song "i try" by macy gray suddenly popped into my mind. and today i heard it TWICE on the radio, in the shortspan of maybe about 2 hours. once during GP, and once on the way home. maybe it's a premonition way in advance (which is quite pathetic considering the unimportance of such a clairvoyant encounter) or this is supposed to be some kind of sign. i checked out the lyrics, and they do seem rather apt. not totally, but somewhat-
i believe that fate has brought us hereand we should be together babe but we're noti play it off, but i'm dreaming of youi'll keep my cool , but i'm feignin' i try to say goodbye and i choke try to walk away and i stumble and i may seem all right and smile when you leavebut my smiles are just a front here is my confession may i be your possession boy, i need your touch your love , kisses and such with all my might i trybut this i can't deny ugh how disgustingly mushy.ok anyway- i think the prevalent and widespread mugging is really scaring me. this isn't baby stuff like in ri. people are bloody hardcore here now. and it really is everyone this time. the weaker links got weeded out through natural selection when they couldn't make it into rjc. everyone here is dead serious, it's so stifling and scary. the mood in school is so oppressive and heavy, i'm not sure if it's that good a place to study anymore. which begs the question, why do only 1 in 2 students get 4As then? if everyone puts in so much effort, surely you'd expect more than a meagre 50% making a perfect base score. i can only attribute it to two things - carelessness and/or non-affinity, slipping through the cracks when the net closed for entry.
i think i may need to re-evaluate my career options again. for awhile i was really interested in becoming a lawyer because admittedly, it just looks like a cool profession. you can make pretty good money (checked out the exact statistics) too. of course i'm not disputing the fact that i've become more analytical and logical over the years (even though nicole would say otherwise despite only knowing me for a year and a half, haha) which i obviously would consider as an added benefit, like hey i'm made for this man.
but what's up with all these science students?! nothing against them, it's just that it's spoiling the market la. just stick to your bioengineering or architecture or something, you know. it's hard enough for arts graduates to strike it out with the limited choice, it doesn't help to have science students encroaching on the so-called boundaries, where they can take us on for non-science degrees but not vice versa. it's unfair, i know and i should have expected this when i made the choice about 2 years ago. but still i can't help but feel indignant that this is going to be one helluva uphill struggle.
mike just took up your time at
8:54 pm
th time!