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Thursday, July 21, 2005
i feel mount everest becoming an actual reality, and that's good. but it's a quick mission, not much time to mess around. only one chance, go-in-come-out. it was delayed by imbeciles, but now that things are solid i can continue on my quest for conquest. and i will make my way into the heart of darkness, in more ways than one. your heart of darkness. i wish i could say "i could sing of your love forever" but that would be semi-blasphemous and besides it isn't true anyway. so-
i could stare at your face forever.------------------
i hate the fucking burden of secrecy, and i think i'm rather good at keeping secrets. just don't talk about people lor! so that you won't be tempted to blurt things out. but it is very hard to keep all that juicy stuff inside you when you're just wishing to let everything burst from inside. like maxine (hong-kingston), i want to tell all. the list of ten or twelve. "report a crime", "take revenge" and "tell five families". ok i'm not sure if i quoted correctly considering i suck at that text (the woman warrior), but yes. it is so hard not to speak! what fun is it of knowing a secret when you have to keep it all within you? if more people knew, then there would be discussion and speculation! (although some would plainly call it gossip)
never mind, even if i can't share with others, it's always fun to
diao the other person whose secret i know when i meet him/her in cryptic terms and seeing their face flash with the "omg oh no not now please don't talk about this" look. and then the fun stops when they bring out MY basket of dirty laundry.
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i doubt many would have noticed, but the (cheap) "shaw foundation library" lettering (in black PAPER) outside the library in school just smacks of increased cultural importing from ri. first it was the tea sessions with the head honchos in school and now it's the gratuitous naming of a venue in school that's actually considered cool (well in more ways than one). after all, rafflesians are ultimately muggers and when you take their need for social fulfillment, the library's a pretty good place for fraternizing. but that isn't the point! "shaw foundation library" is so.. bleh. it's not like it's a one-of-a-kind thing, there's a "shaw" something in ri as well. now, "hullett memorial library", that's something else altogether. but i'm beginning to think good air-conditioning and mezzanine flooring pwns colonial-styled furniture and cloyingly repetitive muzak.
mike just took up your time at
10:28 pm
th time!